Heartbreak Archives - Sakshi Zion

She came to me in many faces, the Triple Goddess herself.

She was like Parvati, sweet, nurturing, affectionate, understanding, kind and compassionate. She loved me and supported me and believed in my dreams. She was like a mother to my daughter and that meant the world to me.

She was like Durga, fierce, protective, queenly, loyal and powerful, standing up for righteousness and truth, dignified and demanding respect. She stood up for me and protected my heart, she believed in honesty and the loyalty of true love. She cared for us, while living her dream and rising in her power. I respected her so much.

She was also Kali, dreadful, cold and harsh. Unleashed and unchained.. she ripped my head off and swallowed my heart, while fucking me to pieces… Our love was obliterated by her recklessness & self-sabotage.

For the Goddess Power is also unpredictable and unforgiving at times. It was a whirlwind and completely devastating but I learned to “let go” and that perhaps is her greatest lesson to me. Letting go of false pretenses and false promises. Letting go of expectations and worries. Letting go of fear. Letting go of her was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Because my love ran so deep. I believed in us and somehow.. I still do.. but now we part, with a broken heart, because I still fuckin love you, goodbye.💔

yes, this is bittersweet, but I guess that’s life. 😥

-By Sakshi Zion (Written in May 2019)

I was at a restaurant yesterday and this song came on. Actually, they were playing the entire Erykah Badu “Baduizm” album. It brought me back! I was feelin these emotions come up and remembering high school and my first love in North Carolina and that crazy journey we took together. My spirit was so young and so innocent then. I was so naive to this harsh world. I was very aware too, being conscious of oppression and things like that since I was already troddin Rastafari, being a vegetarian and aware of spiritual and metaphysical dimensions, but in the world of love and relationships, I was a dreamer and believer in true love and destiny. And while I still am a dreamer and believer of true love and destiny, heartbreaks have definitely left some wounds. But there is always Next Lifetime…

And when I say that, I don’t necessarily mean next incarnation.. like reincarnation.. even though that is the idea expressed in this song, but next lifetime can also mean a new phase in this life. Right now, I am entering into a new phase in life. Dreams and Aspirations are being manifested and fulfilled. New love is right around the corner too. Wealth and Abundance in all things desired is unfolding before my very eyes. There is no lack of love, which is something Amma taught me in her embrace. You just have to learn to tap into that unlimited source within. Like Butterflies, as Badu sings about in this song, metamorphosis is transforming us into the truest expressions of our selves. Our most beautiful souls are sharing love in the infinite space of existence.